for the first time in months i am happy with the relationship i am in. i feel important, cared about, loved, the whole damn thing. so why is it when something goes good, everything else ends up in the shitter? i mean, for once i was fucking happy and then everything went to hell. and i'm not just talking about stupid little shit like getting a bad grade or my job. i'm talking big fucking problems, like death and addiction and fucked up shit like that. i mean, my boy means the world to me, but even my happiness with us right now can't overcome the sadness that is all around me..