today in my world lit class, they asked what love was and if it was idealistic or realistic in society. i was so angry and so frustrated that i blurted out that love does not exist. that love is all fantasy and everything is just infatuation and fairy tale. all day, i thought of my answer and tried to figure out if i actually believed that or not. i don't. i believe in love and i believe in happily ever after. i have seen love. i have felt love. i know love. i am in love. i know how it feels to have my heart broken. this is how i know that it is real.

i figured out what love is. love is unexplainable. it is a feeling that you cannot reach, you cannot speak of. you can only SHOW love. PROVE love. you can say you love someone over and over and still not mean it. you can hear those words and still not believe it. people throw that word around like it is nothing. "i love you" is something you say not after one day, not after one week, not after one month. it is said when you actually feel something inside for someone else that you can't contain. something that you cannot explain. if you feel that way about someone fast, it is infatuation or it is lust. you know when you love someone. you know it because you can feel it inside. no one can explain love or who you love. it is just felt.

i can feel it.
i want to prove it.
i will show it.
even if it kills me.