it sickens me that certain problems will never go away. i talked to someone today who made me realize that it never ends. it will always be there in your head and you will have to deal with it or it will eat you to death. it honestly SICKENS me to think that i will have to face this issue for longer than i expected. i will not let it get the best of me. i am better than that. i am stronger. and you are, uh, shit.