i was scared for no reason. tonight i felt wanted, not neglected. i felt right at home. i felt like i made the best choice in my entire life. i don't remember the last time i had feelings the way i did today. it was magical. i couldn't stop smiling, laughing, FEELING. i was no longer the numb little girl i used to be. i was alive.

and i know i still haven't finished my 30 day challenge. day 30 is still unwritten. i guess it is because i don't really know who i am yet. i'll save day 30 for when i know who i truly am. i think i am close to figuring it out.